I went to put on a pair of jeans yesterday and I nearly died trying to get them on. Holy hell, I gained weight? For the love of all things that a fair, how did that happen? Oh yeah, leading a sedentary lifestyle, eating chocolate, cookies, egg nog, and many other fattening things and not exercising. Flip, I hate being fat.
I detest New Year's resolutions and never make them. Last year I decided to make some changes to me to better myself. I did pretty good but didn't reach all my goals. I can't dwell on the past - its time to start again, put the past failures behind me and keep moving forward.
One thing I do to sabotage myself is making the excuse that the only place I can get a good workout is at the gym, which feels like its 100 miles away most mornings. I use the excuse that I can't get to the gym (for what ever lame reason) so I will just exercise tomorrow. I'm calling bull shit on that right now. I live in a nice neighborhood with quiet, safe streets. Why not just take a brisk walk around it if I can't go to the gym? So that's what I did this morning.
I updated the iPod, threw on my matching warm up suit, knit hat and gloves and I hit the road. I walked 1.28 miles in 30 minutes and took 3,410 steps. Not too bad for a fat girl. It felt really good and my right foot isn't hurting me at all. It was a good way to start out the day. I had 30 minutes to myself, got to listen to my favorite songs and the air is actually mostly clean and I could breath! Win-win I think.
You will see from the picture half of a cherry turnover. Yes, I ate it. Yes, it was marvelously good. Yes, I enjoyed every flaky, sweet, sticky bite. No, I don't feel guilty about it. A half a turnover is a huge step for me. I bought two yesterday at Sunflower Market with the full intention of eating them both yesterday. But I didn't. Rest assured I will enjoy them before they go bad, but not today. Today I've had a taste and that's all I'm having.
I added my breakfast to My Net Diary and it wasn't as bad as I thought. It was 314 calories, eight grams of fat (all from the turnover) and 61 carbs (ouch!). The turnover and its 16 evil carbs really put me over the edge of my goal of 30-45 grams of carbs per meal. Live and learn.
Today (so far) I have succeeded. I'm a third of the way to my 10,000 steps, I'm not craving anything or hungry and I feel good. In the battle of girl vs. fat, girl won today. Ooh-rah.