Last weekend I was in LA shooting a wonderfully gorgeous wedding. One of the things I love most about my job is that I am always behind the camera, and in turn I never have to see pictures of my fat ass. One could say I am in a bit of denial. Well last week at the wedding the bride and groom requested a picture with the whole table we were sitting at. That meant me passing my camera to the wedding planner and taking my seat. Say cheese! The result is the most disgusting thing I have ever seen in my life. Huge is a gross understatement. I know some readers will think I should be talking like this. I honestly don't have a self esteem issue. Yes I don't look the way I want to, but I love myself. I am confident and brave enough to lay the issues on the table. I am fat. I need to change. This picture did more for me that anything else possible could. And of course I have to share it with you all. Like I said the the last few posts...I need to be accountable to other people. Enough is enough.
Uggh. This is embarrassing.
Just for funsies...here is a picture of me 100 lbs lighter 10 years ago. Proving that I could be super hot. Thick still? Yes. But that just comes from being a Ballou. And I am fine with that.
If that isn't motivation to go to the gym and eat better I don't think anything will. So I am off to the gym. Loves to all!